This morning I woke up and realized that this is your first birthday that I have ever missed. I will not be able to tie your birthday balloons to your chair, or lay out your presents and cards beside your cake. I will not be able to take goodies to your class at school, or pick you up from school and take you for a special birthday lunch. Ashlyn, I can not tell you how much we miss you here! I miss your contagious laugh, and your silliness. I miss the way you walk in the door from school and your sisters go running to you while screaming your name. I miss the way you love your little sisters, and the way they love you back. I miss you singing so loud in your room that I hear you outside. I miss all of your little performances, and your fashion shows you have with Madi. We just miss you! One thing that keeps me going is that you are happy, and that I know I will see you very soon. I want you to be happy, because this is the only thing that reassures me that letting you stay in Greenville was the right decision. Not for me, but for you. I hope you enjoy your presents, you should receive them in the mail today, and we will see you in a couple of weeks. I love you and Happy Birthday!